hope - yahal - wait, expect, tarry: patience.
Elohim - Supreme God
As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?...Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me. By day the Lord directions his love, at night his song is with me - a prayer to the God fo my life...Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. Psalm 42
With deep desire for God, especially in light of the trauma of being human, the writer recognizes that nothing on earth can comfort, let alone satisfy, but God. We despair and not in a quiet way. The clamoring and uproar of our soul can fuel a rage even against itself.
The solution does not come from within, but with the presence, the face-to-face encounter with the God who saves. Only then comes victory and delivery.
How can we know God like this? The depth of God, which we must explore, meets us in the depths of our own psyche, our own soul. His love is revealed there; he is not afraid of our depths. His song plays in my heart, resulting in restoration and revival of the life he intends with Him.
Maybe we shouldn't medicate the pain. Maybe we should avoid the distractions and displacements and instead walk with God into our suffering, our difficulty. He isn't afraid and neither should we be. Let him meet us there and minister to us there and take the lessons, the glory, onto the healing path we need.
Lord, leave me unafraid! Amen.